ELUSIVETHIEF

Elusive thief ... Sai Krishna



All are sad that they are not able to think of God, whereas I am crying that I am not able to forget Him. My continuous thoughts of Swami make me insane, I am not able to do the daily chores and I am unable to sleep. In order to forget Swami I traveled to various places but I remained the same. So I always cry at His feet. One day, I wrote a letter to Doctor Kothandapani explaining my state. He replied with the following:A Gopi was doing penance at Brijbhoomi. A sage appeared...Sage: Why do you do penance?Gopi: To forget Krishna.Sage: Did you succeed in your effort?Gopi: No. As I try to forget, the thought of Krishna increases further.The sage then prostrated at her feet and told her “You are my Guru.”Doctor said that the state of the Gopi reflected my own state. Yes, as I tried to forget the elusive thief Parthi Kanha, He only caught hold of me more....
Why am I fascinated with Your unforgettable form?Why do I follow you with unbreakable bond?Are my cries lullabies to You?Do my tears bathe You in bliss?Oh Saieshwara! Have You no compassion for me?
Why should an Atma sadhaka seek proof for his experiences? His extraordinary experiences are proofs themselves for the outpouring of Truth. How I was realizing this! Being unable to bear the force of attraction, the power of love, I lost myself. Sometimes I lamented and cried, sometimes I bathed in bliss; my life became a battle with myself.Each and every one who reads this can see God here itself right now. This is my life; this is how I saw my Kanha. Swami Himself told me that I had become insane in devotion and had made Him insane too. This is the peak of Madhura bhava. I have reached it after a thirty-five year Godward journey. Following this, I had many revelations.You too can join me in this journey to attain God and reach the peak of spirituality.
-- Vasantha Sai